[ He repeats it again, in case Zell doesn't understand. It hadn't been a decision, as far as Jim's concerned. Even if they hadn't known yet... well, Jim'd already had an idea. Jim kissed Zell in his sleep that night.
He breaks a hand away from Zell's to nudge his boyfriend's hair gently away from his eyes, though he avoids meeting them even when Zell cups his chin. ]
I will protect you. I'll catch you.
[ Jim's silent, thinking about how he should answer the other part of Zell's question - what else he'd been thinking about when Kunsel posted those statistics. How he wants to catch Zell, but - not the other way around. Not if it means Zell dying for him, because he can't think about that.
idk if this makes sense i'm sorry
[ He repeats it again, in case Zell doesn't understand. It hadn't been a decision, as far as Jim's concerned. Even if they hadn't known yet... well, Jim'd already had an idea. Jim kissed Zell in his sleep that night.
He breaks a hand away from Zell's to nudge his boyfriend's hair gently away from his eyes, though he avoids meeting them even when Zell cups his chin. ]
I will protect you. I'll catch you.
[ Jim's silent, thinking about how he should answer the other part of Zell's question - what else he'd been thinking about when Kunsel posted those statistics. How he wants to catch Zell, but - not the other way around. Not if it means Zell dying for him, because he can't think about that.
The thought stays buried. ]
I won't choke.