James Pleiades Hawkins!! (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
rattlingthestars) wrote2017-02-07 12:46 am
rattlingthestars) wrote2017-02-07 12:46 am
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'S Jim. Leave a message.
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'S Jim. Leave a message.
They're -
[ Lying. the words die on his tongue and he shakes his head. They're probably not lying, but they're wrong, and he needs to stop them. He can hear how close Zell is to falling apart. ]
- Tell me where you are.
[ Lying. the words die on his tongue and he shakes his head. They're probably not lying, but they're wrong, and he needs to stop them. He can hear how close Zell is to falling apart. ]
- Tell me where you are.
[ He's quiet for a moment as he tries hard to rein himself in as he sinks to the floor. ]
What? What can I do? [ His voice comes out both quiet and raw. ]
What? What can I do? [ His voice comes out both quiet and raw. ]
[ He has to think about it. Zell starts tapping on the floor in a certain code to get his mind off of what's on the other side of the door. ]
South. South skywalk from the building we were in. [ Where Jim split form there. Where Zell left to find him.
Taking a deep breath before continuing ] West- no, south west. Directly south west from that building.
South. South skywalk from the building we were in. [ Where Jim split form there. Where Zell left to find him.
Taking a deep breath before continuing ] West- no, south west. Directly south west from that building.
They can't do anything anyway, don't you get it?
That's why I left! Knocking me out isn't going to work.
That's why I left! Knocking me out isn't going to work.
And how do you know that for a fact? And worst case scenario, they can at least keep you holed up in a room! That'd be better than you running off!
[ No way to stop things from happening. No way to help him stop from killing anyone. Zell and Kunsel would fight through the symptoms if it meant keeping them both on a tight leash, right? ]
[ No way to stop things from happening. No way to help him stop from killing anyone. Zell and Kunsel would fight through the symptoms if it meant keeping them both on a tight leash, right? ]
You can wait.
[ Jim knows it's hard. Impossible, maybe, for Zell. ]
You can be you, when I - when I'm me again. You can give me something to come back to.
[ Jim knows it's hard. Impossible, maybe, for Zell. ]
You can be you, when I - when I'm me again. You can give me something to come back to.
I'm coming.
[ He wants to say something better, something that will actually help. ]
-Don't listen to them. Block 'em out, sing, whatever you have to do. They're wrong. They're wrong
[ Because they hadn't been lucky. Any of them. But Jim's determined to protect what good has come of this place, and he's already moving. His sail, streaked with blood, unfurls in the sunlight and he takes off without another thought. ]
[ He wants to say something better, something that will actually help. ]
-Don't listen to them. Block 'em out, sing, whatever you have to do. They're wrong. They're wrong
[ Because they hadn't been lucky. Any of them. But Jim's determined to protect what good has come of this place, and he's already moving. His sail, streaked with blood, unfurls in the sunlight and he takes off without another thought. ]
[ He wants to argue, but he knows Jim is right. That's all he can really do. That's all he's been able to do. Feeling the tears run down his face as he hugs tablet close. ]
Yeah. Yeah, I can wait.
[ Swallowing back the emotions as he looks back towards the rows of substitute pews and the abstract eye symbol with blood. ]
I'll try to wait.
[ For a moment, he wonders how much of him would be left for Jim when he returns to normal.
It's only been a couple of days. This thing only has a couple more days left, right? ]
Yeah. Yeah, I can wait.
[ Swallowing back the emotions as he looks back towards the rows of substitute pews and the abstract eye symbol with blood. ]
I'll try to wait.
[ For a moment, he wonders how much of him would be left for Jim when he returns to normal.
It's only been a couple of days. This thing only has a couple more days left, right? ]
[ For a moment, everything seems to fade away at the I'm coming. ]
Yeah. I'll try-
[ Mochi is yowling on the other side of the door. Probably came down for food and came across the abomination. ]
Shit. I have to- [ Go out and deal with it. See it. ]
It's my friends, Jim. It's not just Seifer, but all of them... I'm going to get Mochi and Morph before they do anything to them.
[ He has to hold on until Jim gets there. He doesn't even know how far Jim is. ]
Yeah. I'll try-
[ Mochi is yowling on the other side of the door. Probably came down for food and came across the abomination. ]
Shit. I have to- [ Go out and deal with it. See it. ]
It's my friends, Jim. It's not just Seifer, but all of them... I'm going to get Mochi and Morph before they do anything to them.
[ He has to hold on until Jim gets there. He doesn't even know how far Jim is. ]
Keep them safe. Keep - keep Mochi and Morph safe. I'm stronger now. I can do something. I'm coming to help.
[ He already took care of one anomaly. He can deal with two. ]
I'm coming.
[ He already took care of one anomaly. He can deal with two. ]
I'm coming.
I need you to wait.
[ It's not a suggestion, or a platitude. Jim almost sounds like he's begging, now, and that same refrain is rasping between his every breath. Alone, abandoned, alone, alone, worthless - ]
Need you to be there - the same -
[ It's not a suggestion, or a platitude. Jim almost sounds like he's begging, now, and that same refrain is rasping between his every breath. Alone, abandoned, alone, alone, worthless - ]
Need you to be there - the same -
[ He needs him to wait. He needs him to be there and the same. A part of him wants to yell about how it's unfair. How Zell needed Jim not to take off in the first place. Not in the way he did. Leaving him alone and very confused. That a stretch of time elapsed and Jim still didn't come back. That Jim lied and took off like that...
What about what Zell needs or wants? What about keeping promises or even trying to communicate?
He couldn't hide the sob that did manage to come out. Can't hide the sound of him hitting the door one last time.
Zell is quiet for a bit. Quiet, as he holds his breath until the emotions shaking his core and body calm down. Gasping for air once he needs to breathe and then nodding at the tablet, despite the other being unable to see him. ]
Yeah. [ His voice is raw. ] Yeah, I'll be the same. I'll wait however long it takes.
What about what Zell needs or wants? What about keeping promises or even trying to communicate?
He couldn't hide the sob that did manage to come out. Can't hide the sound of him hitting the door one last time.
Zell is quiet for a bit. Quiet, as he holds his breath until the emotions shaking his core and body calm down. Gasping for air once he needs to breathe and then nodding at the tablet, despite the other being unable to see him. ]
Yeah. [ His voice is raw. ] Yeah, I'll be the same. I'll wait however long it takes.
[ Jim is stronger now. He's coming back to him. His heart starts picking up as he repeats the words in a low murmur.
Keep them safe. Do something.
Saying it again and again as if weaving a spell to kick his own butt into gear. ]
I'll go get them.
[ Standing up shakily as he places his hand on the door. ]
I believe you, Stars. I'll hold them off until you get here.
Keep them safe. Do something.
Saying it again and again as if weaving a spell to kick his own butt into gear. ]
I'll go get them.
[ Standing up shakily as he places his hand on the door. ]
I believe you, Stars. I'll hold them off until you get here.
[ Jim thought he was helping. He thought he could give Zell something to hold on to, something to work toward, something that might make him feel less helpless in the midst of this horrible situation.
But maybe he's not thinking of Zell at all. It's hard to, through the pain and the panic that this is permanent. His body's changed into something Zell could never love, his mind is overtaken by a force he can't explain, and nothing is right. He just wants one thing - one person to be right. ]
I don't know how much longer I'll be able to talk.
But maybe he's not thinking of Zell at all. It's hard to, through the pain and the panic that this is permanent. His body's changed into something Zell could never love, his mind is overtaken by a force he can't explain, and nothing is right. He just wants one thing - one person to be right. ]
I don't know how much longer I'll be able to talk.
[ Zell's right is crumbling. Looking at the screen of the tablet to try to glean what he could. To try to pick out his boyfriend in the darkness. Tracing out his form as best as he could. ]
It's. It's okay. I have- [ Swallowing as he looks to the patchwork creature lingering by. Then looking beyond him to the stairs he came down. ]
Morph and Mochi are looking after me.
[ But there is a longing in his voice. A loneliness there that's making it hard to keep things together. They aren't the ones he want beside him. ]
Love you, Stars. You know...[ His voice breaks there. ]
It's. It's okay. I have- [ Swallowing as he looks to the patchwork creature lingering by. Then looking beyond him to the stairs he came down. ]
Morph and Mochi are looking after me.
[ But there is a longing in his voice. A loneliness there that's making it hard to keep things together. They aren't the ones he want beside him. ]
Love you, Stars. You know...[ His voice breaks there. ]
I know you will.
[ Jim is convinced of that, at least. ]
I know you can. Don't let them take your light, Sunshine.
[ He can't get there and have it be to late. He can't. ]
Hanging up to move faster. Be safe.
[ Jim is convinced of that, at least. ]
I know you can. Don't let them take your light, Sunshine.
[ He can't get there and have it be to late. He can't. ]
Hanging up to move faster. Be safe.
[ He stops at the don't let them take your light...
He's not really sure he can make promises, but Jim needs him. Jim is on his way and he needs him to be whole. Clenching his fist for a moment as he nods. ]
I'll do my best. Stay safe, Stars.
[ And with that he leaves the tablet behind to head out of the bathroom. Before Jim hangs up, he can probably hear the accusations grow louder. Insults at mixed in and there is the sound of something thudding loudly against the floor. A body falling perhaps? ]
He's not really sure he can make promises, but Jim needs him. Jim is on his way and he needs him to be whole. Clenching his fist for a moment as he nods. ]
I'll do my best. Stay safe, Stars.
[ And with that he leaves the tablet behind to head out of the bathroom. Before Jim hangs up, he can probably hear the accusations grow louder. Insults at mixed in and there is the sound of something thudding loudly against the floor. A body falling perhaps? ]
Morph...
[ It stirs a memory in Jim, one he's mostly buried along with his love for Silver. Morphie, I've got a job for ye...
Jim clears his throat to talk through the tears. ]
Can I. Can you put him on, for a second?
[ It stirs a memory in Jim, one he's mostly buried along with his love for Silver. Morphie, I've got a job for ye...
Jim clears his throat to talk through the tears. ]
Can I. Can you put him on, for a second?
[ Standing up shakily as he tries to nod. ]
Of course you can. It might take a few to get to him.
[ Realizing with a twist of his gut that both animals are probably super worried after he took off down the stairs like that. Breezing past the anomaly and actively ignoring him as he heads back up the stairs, albeit slowly.
Talking is hard. Hard without giving away just how much this hurts on the inside. Humming softly to give him something to focus on. The song should be familiar, because it's something Jim taught him.
Morph meets him three-fourths of the way up, having likely flown down to check on Zell. ]
Here he is.
Of course you can. It might take a few to get to him.
[ Realizing with a twist of his gut that both animals are probably super worried after he took off down the stairs like that. Breezing past the anomaly and actively ignoring him as he heads back up the stairs, albeit slowly.
Talking is hard. Hard without giving away just how much this hurts on the inside. Humming softly to give him something to focus on. The song should be familiar, because it's something Jim taught him.
Morph meets him three-fourths of the way up, having likely flown down to check on Zell. ]
Here he is.
[ The sound spurs Jim on. He's moving faster than his surfer could take him back home, flying with the power of sunlight.
Unfortunately, there's an obstacle in his way.
It doesn't take long to deal with, but it's still too long, and he's so afraid that he's too late. Zell will be gone, or like him, by the time he gets there - ]
Unfortunately, there's an obstacle in his way.
It doesn't take long to deal with, but it's still too long, and he's so afraid that he's too late. Zell will be gone, or like him, by the time he gets there - ]
[ Jim gets why Silver did what he did with Morph, now. It's easier. He's learning all kinds of things about himself, now.
He draws a shaky breath and gentles his voice, making sure it's not upset and won't send Morph panicking. ]
Hey, buddy. I've got a job for you.
[ He hesitates, wanting so badly to see Zell's face and know what he thinks. ]
I - I need you to look out for Zell. Stand guard, okay? Don't leave him alone. I love him, more than anything, and... I need you to take care of him.
He draws a shaky breath and gentles his voice, making sure it's not upset and won't send Morph panicking. ]
Hey, buddy. I've got a job for you.
[ He hesitates, wanting so badly to see Zell's face and know what he thinks. ]
I - I need you to look out for Zell. Stand guard, okay? Don't leave him alone. I love him, more than anything, and... I need you to take care of him.
[ He sees Morph scooting in close to the screen as Jim's voice comes clearly across. Looks like the guy is pretty eager to be helpful. Zell knows that feeling. Zell closes his eyes and pictures Jim's expression as he talks to Morph. He can almost see it...
And then Jim's next set of words causes him to look up again. He can see Morph looking at him with determination. Covering his mouth as he starts to cry again, but this time because he knows he's loved. This time because Jim is making sure he's taken care of in the only way he can. Wiping away the tears as he tries to smile at the pink blob who is probably communicating her understands in his own way. A new way without his transformation abilities.
Sorry Jim, Zell can't word at the moment. ]
And then Jim's next set of words causes him to look up again. He can see Morph looking at him with determination. Covering his mouth as he starts to cry again, but this time because he knows he's loved. This time because Jim is making sure he's taken care of in the only way he can. Wiping away the tears as he tries to smile at the pink blob who is probably communicating her understands in his own way. A new way without his transformation abilities.
Sorry Jim, Zell can't word at the moment. ]
[ It's much later than either of them thought by the time Jim gets there. When Jim arrives, he may see a small amount of blood on the floor that looks like it could be from earlier today. There is a couch pushed in front of one of the doors, where a constant stream of whispering can be heard.
The other room in the suit is closed, but there is nothing barring the way.
Will Jim proceed? ]
The other room in the suit is closed, but there is nothing barring the way.
Will Jim proceed? ]
[ No response from Jim.
Sorry, Zack, he just doesn't want to hear it right now. ]
Sorry, Zack, he just doesn't want to hear it right now. ]
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